Monday, July 10, 2006

Lonely

Avery woke up at 4:30 this morning. Ouch! Early is painful when you're the mother of an infant. I managed to feed her and get her into bed with me while Chad was getting ready this morning. He was out the door by about 5:15 to catch a flight to New Mexico.

Once I woke up at 6, I left Avery in my bed so I could shower and get ready. I went into the bathroom and looked at the countertop. One toothbrush. Mine. I felt so lonely. It hit me that my sweet husband was gone for a week and I missed him so badly already. When he's gone, I realize how much he does around here when he's home. He is so hands-on with Avery and helps around the house, too. I'm sure I could get it done on my own if I had to, but it's so nice to have a husband who actively participates in running this household.

Working full-time has been a bit challenging. As I've said a thousand times before, I love my job. But it's starting to wear on me. Added responsibilities and a raised sense of urgency have compounded the problem of time constraints. I keep telling myself that it will get better, but I find myself living weekend to weekend, and even then, we're on the road and don't get any relief.

The busy-ness has driven a chasm between us and our friends right now, too. We're overscheduled and can't spend time with them -- even just to goof off and let our kids play together. We're closer than ever to each other, but we know we need other relationships to help ours grow. But time is against us, and the longer we go without seeing our friends, the more we miss out on growing our relationships with them. How do you catch up???

On a lighter note, Avery is teething. Everything she can get into her hands gets gnawed on. And the child is quite fussy. Okay, okay, so fussy for Avery is a little whiny wimper, but she is fussy. She has also learned to sit up on her own. She's getting really good at balancing and holding herself up. She'll finally topple over after a few minutes, but she's so proud of herself.

Only 3 pictures this time. More next time.

5 comments:

Heather said...

I'm with you, sister. I hate it when Scott travels -- and he's usually only away for a couple of nights. We'll be praying for your sanity. Just don't let yourself get too lonely. Make a point to call on friends. Just a quick phone conversation can lighten your heart! But you know that... :o)

Kim said...

You are definitely blessed with Chad- and him likewise. =)
Yeah, I'm glad you made a clarification of just how horribly fussy Avery gets!

Christy said...

I can feel you pain. I was once a accounting widow myself. I remember how hard it can be to be the only one there with a little one. The older she gets the easier it will be. Hopefully Chad won't have to travel too much:)

Lincoln said...

Oh Laura! Do I understand being a full time mommy and full time employee! It is hard and lonely, but you have lots of people who support you and love you! Trish

Kim said...

Here's a big frowny face I'm sending over the miles-- =( I need a new update and pics from you. How am I supposed to watch her grow up if I don't get regular updates!?
ps- love ya, mean it